Rant, Rant, Rant

Our wedding... the event of the year! Okay, it wasn't really the best party ever, or the ultimate best thing anyone has ever seen in their lives. But, to me it was perfect. Everything about it was magical and beautiful, and at the end of the day, well, it's only my opinion that matters that sticks around as memories! (My Turkey's opinion too, by the way.... but that's it)

Which then makes me wonder. Why did I get so upset when I started finding out pretty much nobody was going to come?

In retrospect, I had huge expectations. I assumed that because I made the effort to go to peoples weddings they definitely would make the effort too. And by making the effort I mean time and money I did not have was spent on them and I ended up with lots of work and credit card bills.

But... that didn't happen. Only 7 bothered. The rest, I may be wrong as one can never be sure of anything except of oneself, but I don't think they even tried.

At the end of it all, to me, it wasn't about who was there, but who actually really wanted to and did everything they could to do so. It would be so stupid to think that everybody would drop everything and flock half way around the World just for me, for us. But those that did really and honestly without any b.s. tried, to me, it's as if they had been there.

But the other ones... the ones that used the excuse of "I don't have money" well.. that's just not true is it?

Day in and day out money is spent on crap. I see it all the time, and just like everybody I'm guilty as charged. The only difference I guess is that I know that's the case!

Man up! Say "I could come to your wedding but I would much rather spend the money on me. I'm sorry, I love you and all but I love myself more."

Fair enough!

It's a harsh truth... but you live and learn.

And all I can say is thank you. Thank you very much for making me see that I should never try hard enough to make you happy, that I should only try hard enough to make me happy.

It's so selfish, and it sounds so horrible to spell it out just like that... but that's exactly what it is. I'm just writing it.

So there... this could go on and on and on. But that's my rant.

It's off my chest and I can happily say that I have moved on.

I can say that having the wedding in SA was the best thing ever. The Turkey and I were so incredibly happy with our 7 guests! And as more and more days go by... I realize that the best thing about that day was marrying my Turk. But that's it. So I'm glad we made the choice of going with our gut.:)

Note to self: always go with your gut. So far it hasn't let you down :)